Two weeks ago tomorrow I’ll have smoked my last cigarette. Bronchitis certainly helped in that department. Still not sure how I feel about the whole thing. The last couple of days I have had more energy than I have in a long time, I seem to be sleeping better. But on the flip side I find my self very anxious all the time, and I have to re-learn how to sing as the bass tones in my voice are almost non existent. I also feel as though I’ve lost something in common with Lee. It was an activity that we used to do together…now neither of us do it and it feels like something is missing. I’m not sure what to do about that. We should replace it with something but it feels like there aren’t enough minutes in the day to learn something new to do together.
I’ve been feeling kind of down since I stopped smoking as well. I’m pretty sure it’s just the lack of nicotine but I feel like I lost a friend or something. I don’t know. I also have had a real hard time concentrating. It’s like my mind is in a constant fog…I’m hoping that wears off soon.
Other than that things seem to be going well. We have a lot of leadership changing at our church. We have two pastors leaving to start church plants in the near future. One of them has been kind of a mentor to me and I am really going to miss him. He had asked if Lee and I would be willing to go with him but it just isn’t in the cards at the moment. We’ll see what goes on after she finishes grad school.
Sorry I haven’t updates as frequently as I used to but I’ve just been so busy…now that I have an iPhone perhaps I’ll try to update more often.